Some of you may read my other blog. Some of you probably don't. But if you know me then you know I have started my struggle with losing weight. I've recently started the Weight Watcher program with a great bunch of people that I work with. I guess it's nice having someone around that can watch you and make sure you're sticking to your points!
At times I feel like a hypocrite because I have always said I didn't believe I was fat and didn't need to lose weight to make others happy. Yet, here I am, enrolled in one of America's top weight loss plans. I tell myself (and others) that I'm doing this for my health (my high BMI and my super high cholesterol) and to just feel better about me. But is this true? Have I just become one of those people that is obsessed with losing weight? Have I become that woman that orders a dinky salad when she goes out or giggles and says she can't have that cake at the office because "I'm on a diet"? Agghh!
Whatever the reasons behind this I am starting something new here. This is the first time in my life I've had to care about my weight and what I've been eating. As a self proclaimed foodie, I've always loved food. I eat at all hours of the day and love to go out to eat with my husband and my family or friends. I'm a huge fan of anything with cheese, deep fried or full of carbs. No foods are off limits with this program, but it does make you choose, and I've always been horrible at decisions.
I'm not going to lie. I'm scared. I'm nervous. I'm doubting myself.
Some people aren't meant to be skinny. Am I?
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