Week 2 - Continued

It is day 6 of Week 2.  I weigh again in two days.  So what did I decide to do today?  Have another breakdown!

 

(Thank you to MadMikesAmerica for letting me borrow this one)

I too have concluded that McDonald's is evil.  Mainly for their delicious McNugget and fries combo.

I woke up in the middle of the day and had 6 hours before I had to be at work (I work overnights and usually sleep all day) and only had 9 points left until my clock resets at midnight.  Normally this wouldn't be a problem and I would fandangle something out until later.  But I got the wild hair that I REALLY WANT SOME MCNUGGETS!  Why is this entering my mind now?

I kept telling myself to ignore it and go eat the soup in the kitchen.  NO!  SHUT UP BRAIN!  I argued with myself (and my husband sadly enough) about it for over an hour.  What about my weekly points?  What about my activity points?  What if I just quit the whole thing and go binge at Chilis or something.  Ugh.

In the end I gave in to my weakness and went and enjoyed 10 wonderful McNuggets and some fries (I didn't large size so that is progress!).  I was torn about how to feel after the deed was done. I logged all the points and sighed to myself.  Part of me was in despair for giving in.  Part of me was upbeat and told myself to just move forward from here.  Part of me was not really giving a damn and told me to get over it.  I'm not sure who won.  Then I got that horrible feeling of thinking I couldn't tell anyone, like I had committed some crime or devious act.  Would they look down on me?  Would I look like a failure to this group of weight loss buddies?

Then my angry and defiant side kicked in and said SCREW THEM if they judge me.  Just because I ate unhealthy doesn't mean I've thrown off the whole program!  I'm not a bad person!  I can still do this!  I had all these things planned to say in order to defend myself, although I'm realizing now I didn't even need to.

So now that I've gotten over myself I've planned my last day of this week to get back on track for my weigh in tomorrow.  I definitely need to work off a few nuggets and hope the fries don't hang around until Wednesday.

Learn something new this week: Hardships are inevitable.  Defeat is not.