Week 4 continued

Today was my second boot camp class.  The class was a lot smaller of course.  I'm not real sure how the class will look at the end of 12 weeks, much less on Friday...

Tomorrow is weigh in.  After last week's downfall you would think I would have done better this week.  Nope.  The weekends are horrible for me because I lose all portion control and just go for what I want.  Bah.  I can't keep doing that if I'm to finish this thing without gaining more weight!

It's sad to say that it makes me feel better to come to work and my coworkers and I who are in this together get to spill about all of the horrible things we ate that weekend and how we predict this week's weigh-in will go.  In a cruel irony it makes me feel human to know I'm not the only one slipping and knowing that I can get back on track even if I do stumble.  I'm trying to encourage those in this with me not to give up and not to just quit it all together.  I know it's hard but damn it we started this together and I want to finish this together!  Maybe I can bribe my coworkers with cake or something...

I don't want to quit.  I don't want to give up.  I want to beat this thing and come out on top! Sort of.  I have eyes watching me and telling me I can't do this.  That I can't diet and I won't make it through the fitness class.  I will prove you wrong and I will make something better of myself.

Learn something new this week: Quitting won't make my problems go away.  I have to face them and figure out how to get them out of my way.